I’ve cried more this week than I have in a very long time.
My cousin (though somewhat distant in the lines) passed away last Sunday. And I’ve been a wreck this week. Maybe because of it but maybe there is more?
Tonight my best friend in the whole wide fucking world said that I was being pissy. To not only others but to her as well. And that made me feel really shitty. I am a standoffish person and I have my way of being pissy towards some people but when it starts rubbing off onto my best friend???
That makes me start to think twice about my life.
But then I talked with my girl Miss H and she said that I wasn’t being out of line with anyone.
So now (it’s the next day/night) I don’t know if I was out of line.
And tonight, the next night, I have Miss H. here and Barney is sleeping and snoring on my couch. I’m making sure Miss H sleeps with me so (well tonight I’ll call him Snory Pants) he doesn’t try something later when he wakes up. I’d much rather sleep with her than him at this point. I like him but I’m not ready to move to the next step with him yet.
