I can’t get you out of my head. And I know it’s been a really effing long time. I’m sorry. But I have no closure/choice personally. It’s been nearly impossible for me to move on. If you would like to help or stop that, please contact me.

I hope you are doing well. I don’t mean any harm. I wish the best for you and your family. But I need something to keep me from the sleepless nights; the crying…still…I’m pathetic.

And at the same time I don’t really expect that you will respond or make any actions that may make your life more complicated. I suppose maybe your life is hard enough without thinking of me in the picture. But having you in my head has been nothing but a head’ache’. I’m being honest here and a little honesty would be nice in order for me to close that chapter in my life. We were friends and I really in the end miss just that.

Despite what your wife would like to hear, I will always hold the relationship you have with your children to the highest regard. They mean more to you than I have ever seen in a father and made me a more compassionate person in relation to children. Just the way you speak of your kids…that makes me believe in fatherhood so much more than I ever did.

So do what you think you should do. But no response will only leave a blank for me. If your wife responds I’ll understand. I’m an awful person for missing you for so long. I guess I’m just human.

Once again, I’m sorry if this message brings fault and strangeness into your life. But we were good friends. And that’s what it all boiled down to. Friends.

I hold you in the highest regard…

A